Saturday, December 5, 2009
sunshine on purpose
Saturday, October 31, 2009
fast-paced and irresponsible
The parental units arrived on Thursday evening at about 6pm and ever since we have been doing things non-stop (such as: Mudpie on Thursday night with so many faces I love all belting out Emily Grace's "I Love Chattanooga" and a cover of "Wagon Wheel" while filming a music video--a visit to my Greyfriar's abode--trading old, dusty books stored in Delaware for music and movies at McKay's for 3 hours--the most expensive [and delicious] dinner I have ever eaten at Hennen's with an abundance of compliments thrown my way by the staff I love working with--a small but first dose of Mountain Opry, the epitome of Tennessee--and today awaits).
Sunday, October 25, 2009
it's official, i miss covenant
I went up to Covenant yesterday to meet the always-wonderful-to-hang-out-with Peri to go for a spontaneous run around campus. The air was cold, it was cloudy, but the trees…oh, the trees…still managed to shine some light on us as we ran and it was GORGEOUS. I hadn’t really noticed that fall foliage had arrived until I drove up Lookout Mountain with my mouth open. I love fall.
We managed to get in some good conversation despite our huffing and puffing up the hills with half frozen lungs, and we also did some quiet walking and lots of stretching. It was sort of bizarre to be running around my ex-college while whining about how we were going to be into our MID-TWENTIES soon and noting every 5 minutes the fact that we didn’t recognize anyone on campus.
We caught what we thought was the last of the soccer game, saw a few fellow alumni and those left behind. Lately I’ve found myself feeling so incredibly glad I am out of Covenant, but yesterday I stood there in the freezing cold wind listening to the siblings of my graduated friends cheer, “Ohhh CC, ohhh CC” to the Scots on the field, heard the familiar whistle blowing, and all of the sudden there was an ache for that place. As we’d walked to the game, Peri goes, “I am drinking tea and walking around Covenant, when was the last time THIS happened?” And I agreed. It’s the little things we miss. The way the buildings used to look. The old Carter Circle. Drinking coffee in the library. Cheering at a soccer game. I’m all grown up now, and all my friends are moving in different directions to the military, to missions, to jobs in other cities, to marriage…it all makes me ache inside, to be back together at Covenant making it the Covenant Peri and I knew. Not the Covenant it is now. The people are different, the culture somewhat different (although we did see some guys battling with some kind of sword out on Brock lawn- oh, Covenant), and even the buildings different. My hall no longer has random paintings from previous students and carpet in the rooms and the same color hallway. Now it’s just a stage on which memories flood out and play out in my head when I go back and visit.
Even when I start to get all achy and sentimental and pensive (what a great word), I always feel this thankfulness too. I walked back from the soccer game slowly because of my frozen limbs and I just got the urge to say, “Hey God, you did a lot here the past four years. Thanks.” I can’t even list all the ways I grew, changed, learned, all the experiences I had, all the meaningful conversations that were spoken, all the lifelong friends I made, all the ways I found myself and God while at Covenant. No one knows but Him anyway. As I gear up to start the loan payments next month (insert horrifying scream here), I remember that you really can’t buy that kind of growth and that God knew exactly what he was doing. And every experience is different. Covenant’s not for everyone, but it was for me. The good and the bad, the pain and the joy, the stressful and the peaceful.
I hope that the next 4 years are as full and as meaningful. All I have to do to get the courage to continue on the road I’m on now is to look back at the last snaky and sometimes road that led to a pretty darn good place: here.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
septiembre
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
relationships or relationshits
Monday, August 17, 2009
bacon and sun, sleep and fun
I recently got back from a week at Lake Martin with some of my favorite people (the Hammetts and friends), and let me tell you, words cannot describe, but I'll try.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
i got a new jooooob
Monday, August 3, 2009
thanks eg
and here i am
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
quotes from my sixth graders
amber: he's TOO nice. i like to fight once in awhile.
how do you spell booze?
-austin
ms. flowers: jacques cousteau, what's he famous for?
angel: karate?
ms. flowers: no, that's chuck norris.
is delaware...is that like the town you're from?
-kassidy
when asking me questions about myself on the first day, one was:
what's your favorite jungle animal?
ms. flowers, i'm in love.
-lexi, clutching her twilight book to her chest
ew, it smells like girls in here!
-timmy
it's not gonna be over til the cows come home!
-billy
aaron: they should outlaw dippin' because my dad does it and gets dizzy and if you're driving you could get in a wreck.
the principal: i dip all the time. makes me dizzy.
::bell rings::
that's a good tone.
-kassidy
josh: how many people think my new haircut looks okay?
::most hands raise::
me: it would look even better if you were sitting down.
josh: you're gonna be a good teacher.
Friday, January 30, 2009
give me your eyes by brandon heath
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tile
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Wasnt it far beyond my reach?
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
Theres a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
To ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work
He's buying time
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?
I've been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all alone